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I shared quite an honest and vulnerable post on my Instagram<\/a> yesterday. It got a great response which I was pleased (and relieved) about. More importantly though I feel it helped people understand a bit more about me and my mindset.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Those who know me and those who have followed me for many years will probably be a bit more aware of what I’m about. I recognise though that I haven’t steadily blogged for a good few years now so it is probably harder for newer followers to gauge what I am even doing online.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Well, I have been blogging nearly ten years now (woah!) and how I blog and what I blog about has certainly changed dramatically. Blogging itself has changed a lot in that time too. Blogs weren’t really heard of back when I started, now you can blog as a career. Which is both crazy and amazing to me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I love to write. I have so many thoughts going through my head all day and I feel like putting them into context is a necessity. To have this platform to share my thoughts and experiences on means the world to me. The fact that people read it and comment on what I have written is a massive bonus. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So, going forward I want my blog and social media to be about positivity. Body positivity, self love, dealing with anxiety and everything that comes in between. I want to talk about age positivity, single mum positivity, blended family positivity – EVERYTHING! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I plan on being much more open and honest about my thoughts and feelings as well as my struggles. Which is something I never normally share. Not when I’m in midst of it anyway. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I am feeling down I tend to just go quiet online with the mindset of ‘I will come back when I feel better’ but that isn’t how I should be doing it. Firstly, I am not being honest with those who follow me by hiding the exact experiences I am talking to them about. Secondly, I don’t follow my own god damn advice. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I post images and advise people who may be feeling shit on ways to feel better. I also tell people they should love themselves no matter what and preach about normalising bodies of all shapes and sizes but I continue to look at my own with hate. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I am better than I used to be don’t get me wrong, but am still a working progress. Especially lately. Lately I have really fallen back into a hole of self loathing and self criticism. I haven’t been looking after myself or being kind to myself. I am my own worst enemy, my own biggest critic and I shouldn’t be. I should be my number one fan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So from now on I am here all the way. Good times and bad times. And I promise to take my own advice every single day. I will look after myself more and be kinder and less critical. I will treat my mind and body with the respect I do all my loved ones. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I have crappy periods I will document it so those I am speaking to can see it does still happen to me and so I am not just sharing the ‘highlights’ of my life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I will love my body for the amazing vessel it is. The body that has carried me through life and birthed my daughter. That has always healed up even when I have been extremely ill. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Most importantly I will keep blogging! Writing is a great release for me. It helps me make sense of my thoughts when I am feeling down or anxious so it annoys me I don’t do it when I feel crap. I should! Instead I fall back into old habits like having a glass of wine, eating crap and generally putting off life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I know I need to push through it when I feel that way. Like getting over an addiction, it is harder on the days you just want to give up. Pushing through is key though. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The most exciting part of this is I will be here with you from now on. We will be going through life, anxiety and self growth together. I won’t just be sharing words based on my experiences, I will be living by them day by day just as I hope you will be. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

The words I will be sharing will be based on what I am experiencing there and then instead of stuff I had experienced in the past. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

So let’s get started! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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